Friday, December 19, 2014

The Tale of An Invisible Child: Dear, Somebody...

"I am feeling down. Would you listen to my story?"

There it is.
The feeling. That inconvenient things has come invading my mind again.
Everyday. Almost every single day since the beginning of December, my mood has gone worst. Worse and worsen as the day pass, going upside down until in reach the lowest rung.

I admit it. I need people to support me at this rate. So I write...

Monday, December 8, 2014

To Finish A Yuck Meal

image taken from here

I only have two choices: to eat or stay starving.
Both are very inconvenient to do.

That's my own cooking
But again...
I should not waste food, right?

I sighed, hard. 
Looking at the rice in the plate after the first taste already made my heart sunk. I should eat this? My heart screamed. I averted my eyes, didn't want to stare at my own poor masterpiece any longer.
God, is my cooking skill really that bad? I was about to burst in tears. As long as I remember, my last cooking (which was last Saturday) wasn't this... yuck.

[Lyric] Remember When - Avril Lavigne


Remember when I cried to you a thousand times
I told you everything
You know my feelings
It never crossed my mind
That there would be a time
For us to say goodbye
What a big surprise

But I'm not lost
I'm not gone
I haven't forgot

[Lyric] Black Star - Avril Lavigne

Black Star

Black star
Black star
Forever you will be
A shining star
Shining star
Be whatever you can be

Rock star
Rock star
We will always be...
Black star
Black star
Black star

Black star
Black star
Black star

~ Aira

Sunday, December 7, 2014

The Tale of An Invisible Child : "Supaya Tahu Diri"

    Tetiba saja saya jadi teringat dengan kelas perdana mata kuliah Psikologi Perkembangan Dewasa-Lansia awal semester ini. Seperti biasanya, dosen melemparkan pertanyaan cliche pada sesi pengantar mata kuliah: “Kenapa kita harus belajar mata kuliah ini?” Pertanyaan yang cenderung membosankan bagi saya mengingat hampir semua dosen mengajukan pertanyaan yang sama di setiap pertemuan perdana mata kuliah yang diampunya.

         Saya tidak begitu tertarik untuk beropini pada saat itu dan menyibukkan diri dengan pikiran saya sendiri sementara kelas riuh oleh teman-teman yang bergilir menyampaikan pendapatnya, hingga suatu kalimat dari dosen yang menanggapi dan membenarkan pendapat salah satu mahasisiwa sukses menggiring imajinasi liar saya kembali ke ruang kelas.

           “Ya, supaya kalian tahu diri.”

Saturday, December 6, 2014

A Short Letter for Lani

Dear Lani,

How are you?

Well, I know it's not a good question to ask. I also know that you've been avoiding us lately.
I know.
We knew.

I read your blog posts. When you refer me to that certain site. I read the older post.
Checking the date, I couldn't recall what was wrong on that day which made you that furious. Seriously, I don't remember a thing. I don't remember what did we do to get you that upset on that day. But don't worry. I don't write this to confront you :)

I just wanna pass some words to you.
No, I am not gonna lecture nor giving you advices. I know better that I'm not in the position to do that :)

Friday, December 5, 2014

A Letter to Echa


Dear Echa,
I know it’s stupid to write you this letter. I am so embarrass to myself for doing this. But you know, I am not a kind of people who is good at talking. I am one of those people who is an expert at hiding our feeling and putting poker face on.

All I want to say is... I am sorry for being such a bad friend. I know I had troubled you a lot. Also, thank you for taking care of me all this time.